Saturday, March 19, 2011

Corbin's Perspective

Well I thought if my Mommy gets to talk/blog about Alexis I sure as heck want to too! Anyways I had the opportunity to go with Mom, Alexis, and Daryl to the Huntsman Cancer Institute/Hospital. I had an amazing time; not only was it fun but it really was an eye-opener for me. Everything there was so high tech! I loved it. The best part was the incredible people there that took such good care of my sister. They got us in and started quickly and pleasantly, heck they even gave us free drinks and snacks. Naturally it was legit for me. I didn’t get to see her much since she had so many good friends come visit her but when I did it was quite the experience. As I sat and watched my oldest sister get filled with the chemicals that literally kills almost everything in her body I couldn’t help but feel down and sad. I even got a bit teary. Never in my life have I seen my sister in such a state with her incredibly long, beautiful hair gone, and she looked so sickly. Yet as I continued to watch her I realized this cancer has done so much for her and me.


Before all this happened Alexis and I were not as close as it seemed. She was always ignoring me or I was always annoying her. We were never exactly on the same page; in fact, we were almost always fighting. Now she doesn’t know this, but I hated how things were with us. I really wanted to be a better brother but no matter how hard I tried it didn’t work. Now I see that as we have both been facing this trial, her and I have grown so much closer. I can honestly say I have seen some light in this. We are now both sporting the same hair do, (which I think she rocks better then me…. Dang). We do so many things together that we wouldn’t have before, (over-sized bubble baths is one thing). Ha I’m no longer afraid I’ll get punched or kicked for a hug or a kiss on the cheek… Well actually I’m still afraid but she’s doesn’t mind as much! She’s simply the best. She felt so good through this chemo, which was amazing. I felt even better. I’ve decided to go to all the rest of her treatments! Being able to sit and just keep her company as she was injected may not have been incredibly fun or exciting but it was perfect. She was beautiful :)

11 comments:

JulieJ said...

awwwww...love little Corby!! What a great brother! Nice work Corb!!

Anonymous said...

AHHH.....that was an awesome post Corby. You are a great brother. Ddon't worry, just so you know, Alexis said you are her favorite brother, but keep that on the down low, umhuh. Love you Corby for your support of your sister and just being you. We love you too, it's just me your dad's favorite cousin. Giving you support.

We love you Alexis.

Sana Vehikite :)

Jen said...

Oh Corb!!! This was such a good post! I think you should be allowed to post more things in the future. I'm not gonna lie, this made me tear up a bit, you and your family have been so amazing through this whole trial, and I know that the Lord knew your family could handle it, as crappy as it is. But it's true, Alexis is so freaking beautiful through all of this, but I think the love you have for her is even more of a beautiful thing. I LOVE your family, keep up the great support Corb!
Love, Jen Farnsworth

Kim said...

Corb, SUCH a stud! Soooo sweet, made me cry.. suprising I know ha! :) I love you guys!!

maxfamclan said...

Thanks for sharing your thoughts Corbin! It's always neat to hear different perspectives on this unforgettable time. You are a great brother, and next time we will not visit for so long!

Anonymous said...

Corbin is such a stripling warrior! I'm sitting here in New Zealand tearing up as well! Take a picture of me with you next time when you go to Chemo so I can be there too! I love you all! -Elder K

Big Daddy said...

Corb...That was really sweet! Sharing your feelings gives me an in site to your heart and the man you will become! Thanks for melting my heart!

Chrissy said...

Your love for each other is inspiring. Love is the greatest blessing we can receive, and it lasts forever. You are wonderful!

Jenny Tooke said...

Crying harder! Love you guys!

Angie and Jamie Arnold said...

Oh my word, you guys are all killing me! This is Angie (Ross) Arnold in So Cal creating rivers with my tears as I read all of your posts. What a fantastic family you are, Kafusis! Alexis, what a strength you are to me. I know we don't even know each other very well, but I want to blink myself there to give you (and your Mom, because Moms hurt with you) a HUGE hug. Stay strong! Thanks for letting me take part in your lives through your blog. I am praying for you.
Angie

6 P's in a Pod said...

Thanks for posting, Corbs. You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Luvs---